beng away last week felt like a lot longer than just a week. i feel like i've missed out on a lot. it was great getting away tho! some pics from the trip to BC..

girls night out at stanley park!

best sashimi i've ever had! mm so satisfying. i can't get over it! :P

shopping at metrotown!

at richmond night market

at the reception

the end of the night - angela, sharon, christine, me

been thinking about lots but too lazy to compile thoughts at the moment :P

last night i saw this group on facebook called awkward moments define my life. i was curious so i checked it out.. the description made me LOL so hard! because sooo many of them applied to me. and probably to a lot of ppl.. but it's just so funny and awesome that someone took the time to list all these awkward situations. here are the parts in the description that directly applied to me and i got a kick out of:

if you've ever..
1. walked down the hall and someone you know is really far away but you dont want to make eye contact too soon yet you dont want to miss it so you look at them then look away..
2. gone in for a hug and had your arms the wrong way or your heads both go the same direction then you bump heads
3. kept bumping in to someone... they walk right you walk right, they walk left you walk left etc.
4. messed up a high five; theres many ways to do this believe me... high fived it when they went for a pound. high fived someone when they ment to highfive the person BEHIND you and so on.
5. waved to someone when they were waving to someone behind you
7. someone spoke to you in bad english and you just smiled and nodded yes when the question wasnt a yes or no question
8. awkward silences.
9. calling somones name when its not them.
10. calling someones name and they dont hear you so everyone stares at you when you look like your talking to yourself
11. awkward conversations in general
13. saying bye and then walking the same way as that person
15. typing something while another person ims you and you always end up sending them really weird sounding things by mistake
16. Walking down the hall and being at the point where you know them but you are not sure if you know them enough to say hi yet, so you dont
17. having a hole in your pants
18. joining in on a random conversation followed by stares
19. when you're at a restaurant and the waiter says "enjoy your meal" and you say "you too" only realizing later that they aren't going to eat anything
21. and best of all you just love to make awkward smiles in pictures.
22. told a joke that no one laughed at (or one that only YOU thought was funny)
25. sang REALLY loud and then someone changes the station or whatnot leaving you singing REALLY loud for a second or two..

yep.. awkwardness is pretty hilarious. but when it's serious.. eek i can't stand it. haha serious awkwardness. someone should define that on wikipedia :P

man.. once i get started i almost can't stop. because i'm moving at the end of the summer.. i've been slowly going through my room and throwing out stuff i no longer need. and that's A LOT of stuff. it's pretty unlike me to start so early since i usually leave this stuff to the last minute. but i've actually been enjoying going through my old stuff..

tonight i sat for awhile debating whether or not to throw out my old notes. why is it so hard to part with this stuff?! i'm such a flippin pack rat. blarg. after about 5 mins i decided that i would throw out the stuff i know i'll never look at again (even tho the stuff i kept.. i still probably won't look at :P) ..but some notes hold a specialer place in my heart. like anatomy! and some of my other health sci courses. i even had a box of notes from OAC! bio and english and biomechanics.. why did i keep only those ones? *shrug* but going through my OAC english stuff brought such joy to my heart :) you see my OAC english teach mr. wright was such a dear man.. i loved him so :P i got to see his comments on my assignments, tests, and quizzes. he wrote such nice things on this quiz that was only out of 15. i was such a good student in highschool. what the heck happened....? haha. anyways.. mr. wright was such a great teacher. i remember my friend caitlin and i would just hang around after class (it was our last class of the day) to talk to him.. haha we were such geeks :P

man.. i have so much STUFF. i guess it's good i'm starting early or this would take forever. my family are pack rats too. well maybe not my brother. how do we accumulate so many material possessions in our lifetime? i sometimes wonder.. how much STUFF or crap there must be in the whole world. what if we got rid of every single thing we didn't need? wow.. life would be so much more simple. wouldn't have to lug around all this crap whenever you move.

i'm really looking fwd to getting away even if it's just for a little while. retreat with my windsor church this weekend at ridgetown college! and then.. off to BC on tuesday for 5 glorious days of wedding fun! weeee.. i almost don't want to think about when i have to come back. when i'll really have to buckle down and find a job.. eek.

have a great long weekend everyone! and to those going to CC and other church conferences/retreats.. expect the Lord to do great things :)

inactivity breeds many many thoughts...

what would happen if you verbalized your every single thought and feeling? i'm not gonna elaborate on this..

i've been watching a lot of scrubs lately. JD said this in one episode..

owning your burdens is half the battle.

made me think of how we as brothers and sisters are supposed to bear one another's burdens. yes you can own your burdens as in.. they are still yours to begin with. but how do you even "own your burden" in a christian community if you're supposed to share them with others. i'd like to ask the writers what they were thinking when they wrote that line.

something that i've wanted to blog about for awhile now but haven't yet. it was something that was said by my prof during one of my brutally boring religion lectures.

the reasons behind why you do things say a lot about you.

another very good statement. and what is the reason behind why i do things? well i know what the reason should be. JESUS. and if he is the reason behind why i do things.. and that's saying a lot about me.. what a great thing it would be if that were true. because that would mean that i'm all about JESUS. and that's what we all should be striving for right? right.

and JESUS is about many many things. most importantly.. he is about love.

health party has long since been over but the memory lives on :) for your downloading pleasure.. here is the video that was shown at HP. PLUS! extra bonus never-before-seen footage! :P

http://www.gigasize.com/get.php/-1100971298/HPfinalebloopers.wmv

the video is about 8 mins long. hopefully the link works. enjoooy.

i was updating my notebook of spiritual learnings and came across something that barry usher said to ACF a long time ago..

our change will not be done until we get to heaven.

amen to that! thank God that he continually changes us. it's when we are open to being changed that he blesses us. words of rebuke and encouragement (when they contain truth and are motivated by love) should bring about action accompanied by joy in doing that action. i think it's a real sign of humility and maturity when you can find joy in refining yourself.

pam said something really cool today.

you have to prove the spiritual in the normal.

even thought she was talking to yp.. i was really convicted by this. it's the idea that our spiritual lives and learnings must be reflected in our every day lives.. whether it be in cleaning your house or doing your school work. seems like such a simple thing. God gives us a responsiblity as his children to maintain what he has given us.

i went to london gospel temple's young adult fellowship on monday night and what a blessing it was. a couple things i took from the speaker..

we are limitless beings and are capable of doing ANYTHING by the power of God.

it made me think of Sex God and rob bell's idea that we have infinitely deep souls. being infinitely deep as well as limitless beings.. mmm. put in other words.. we are limitless inwardly AND outwardly. wow.. this is how God created us. makes you wonder what you're doing with these gifts.

whatever controls your mind controls your life.

it's so true. and reminded me again about phil 4:8. if we let whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable control our minds.. think of the outpour of positivity and benefit that would be an encouragement to yourself and others.

possibly the last official p&r tonight.. :( all good things must come to an end? what an awesome night it was too. since a lot of ppl weren't there i'll post here a little bit about what i shared. it'll be the condensed version so i apologize if it seems choppy and disorganized.

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him. 1 John 5:14-15

what an amazing promise. but how do we ask something according to his will when we don't know what his will is?

and i began to think last night about how i have not experienced or shown the joy i have in the Lord for such a long time. and these verses came to mind..

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

there it says plainly that this is God's will for us. and altho this is not something specific that God has in his will for me (like what his plans are for me in september).. it is still his will. so i must live in accordance with it.. being joyful always, praying continually, and giving thanks in all circumstances.

and more about his will.. when will we ever know if something is from the Lord or from ourselves if we don't take the leap of faith and have the confidence that what we are doing is right? if we never get past the 'is it from me or is it from God?' thing.. we'll never be able to truly experience the confidence 1 John 5:14-15 talks about.

and here is something that roger shared with us that i thought was really cool..

Behold, as the eyes of servants look to the hand of their master, As the eyes of a maid to the hand of her mistress, So our eyes look to the LORD our God, Until He is gracious to us. Psalm 123:2 NASB

roger actually demonstrated this for us. he used me as the "master" and just stared at my hand for like 30 seconds to make his point. the eyes of the servant look to the hand of their master. that's what we should always be doing.. looking to the hand of our God, our master. keeping an eye out for when he is going to raise his hand and tell us to do something. keeping an eye out for when he's going to do his mighty work among us. we must keep watch for the Lord is always at work in our lives. hallelujah!

it's been almost exactly one week since my exams finished. and it has been one hardcore week of fun. crAZy. it was great to be able to spend time with ppl before they left but really tiring to be out all day and night every day. time well spent and worth it tho! and sleep can always be caught up on later :P goodbyes were long and drawn out with ppl leaving every day.. sigh. but of course they were surrounded by good times:

crabby's after last exam!

dinner @ moxies.

sleepover with the girls @ SA.

last exec meeting - hotpot @ hong ping.

HEALTH PARTY! woot.

yahoo lan party @ 4.

"last" p&r.

helping sonj move.. our outdoor living room! heheh..

today is the first day i actually spent at home.. and i must say it feels good. things are settling down again and now must come back to the "real" world and get stuff done.

our hope in the Lord is good. it brings peace, comfort, and joy and most of all reminds me my sovereign Lord who is in control of all things.

Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the LORD his God. Psalm 146:5