Purposelessness Purpose

We were Skyping with Sherene & Adrian last night.  It was so good to see them and catch up with them.  Although it's only been 3 weeks since they left, it feels much longer.

Something Adrian said really encouraged me.  He said that when people ask him about us he says that he has never seen Ry more in his element than he is right now.  I totally agreed with him.  With Ry being at Fuller and doing this academic stuff, I really haven't seen him more excited to be where he is and so happy to be doing what he is doing.  And for me, Adrian said that he also sees that I am much happier to be in California.  Not that I wasn't happy being in Toronto, surrounded by all my friends and family.  But I totally understood what he meant.  Despite having no job, no obvious "purpose", no income, less friends, and no family here, I am quite happy.  And I think it's because I know that we are in the centre of God's will.  And I remember learning somewhere a long time ago, that the happiest place to be is in the centre of God's will.  A few weeks ago I shared with Ry how I felt this sense of "purposelessness purpose" here in Cali.  Although I don't seem to have any "real" purpose living here besides supporting my husband while he does his PhD, I still feel so much purpose and meaning to being here.  I love that we are on this faith journey, leaning and relying on God every step of the way.  I don't think I would want it any other way.  That's why the thought of moving back to Toronto even saddens me.  Not that I wouldn't love to go back and be back with all my friends and family.  But even the fact that we have very few friends here is like a stretching experience.  It may be building our character without us even knowing it.

I have no idea how long we are going to last out here.  But for as long as we do, I'm going to embrace this adventure and look ahead at the open horizon of possibilities.