LOVE nights at home to relax and catch up.

LOVE meditative music to help me relax and catch up.

LOVE uncontrollable/tired laughing during class.

LOVE having groceries in the fridge.

LOVE randomly seeing enoch today at finch and getting a hug when i really needed it.


in other words.. i'm trying to praise God today and every day for the little things. because the big things are kind of scaring me at the moment.

i've been wanting to blog for at least a week now. man i miss it. i really want to be more regular with my posts but life gets in the way! but life is what gives me content for my posts.. so i guess that's ok haha.

it's been a grrrreat first 2 weeks here in toronto. sooo much to share! so many thoughts and stories and people.

first things first. it feels SO GOOD.. like REALLY GOOD.. no. FAN-FLIPPIN-TASTICALLY GOOD. to know that i'm doing something that i'm supposed to be doing. altho i've had no clinical experience yet.. after 2 weeks of nursing i KNOW that this is what the Lord has for me. it's my calling. and altho i have no idea what i'm doing or what i'm going to be doing specifically as a nurse.. i praise God that the opportunities are endless and that i know He will show me in time what kind of nurse He wants me to be.

i'm enjoying living on my own. i sometimes still can't believe i'm doing it. i'm INDEPENDENT. and praise God that it hasn't been that hard so far. there is a certain freedom that i'm experiencing right now. i like.

i've also been learning a lot about myself. and i guess just learning a lot in general. i'm so happy to be a student again. back in the summer when i was doing my microbio course.. i was dreading going back to school full time because of the stupid work that comes with it. but i'm realizing that being a student is a gift. i need to cherish it.. because there are certain things that can only happen to you when you're a student. for example today. today turned out to be a great day despite how ridiculously tired i was. i will tell you about it.

after class ended my friends and i were walking to the bus to go home. my friends jenn and julia were really bothered by some stuff we learned in class today. something that our prof presented that they just couldn't let go of. and to be honest ..when they were talking about it.. i had no idea what they were talking about (maybe because i wasn't fully paying attention in class :P). i just wanted to go home and not talk about school. but we ended up getting really into it after we got on the bus. it was probably one of the first times that i got to talk/debate about stuff i learned in class so passionately. and i realized.. hey i do have an opinion about this stuff! and i do know what they're talking about! altho we disagreed a lot.. it was an awesome discussion that i thoroughly enjoyed. and the best part was.. the guy sitting beside me was overhearing our whole discussion and ended up joining into the conversation! and he made some really valid points that i appreciated. i wish i could go into the topic of what we were discussing but that would make this post too much longer than it already is :P but yea.. the guy's name was MACGYVER! what a sweet name! i'm gonna definitely remember that name haha. hopefully we'll see him on campus again sometime.


something i've realized.. i love details. if you're telling me a story.. expect me to ask you about details. i don't like when ppl gloss over details because i wanna know stuff!

something else i've realized.. things that are common knowledge to me may not be common knowledge to someone else. this realization came from hanging out with my new friends/classmates. our interactions are so different from the interactions i have with friends that i've known for years. it's awesome. i'm learning so much from them. i'm gonna cherish the heck out of these next 2 years.

i hope i can post more. life's just too good not to share.

bye bye london...

i don't even know what to say. i'll just let jon foreman say it for me..

Love Isn't Made - Jon Foreman

An hour ago I felt so low I almost drowned
Driving around this messed up town
It's pretty, it's only I felt so lonely
And I knew all night I'd never find a face
That could understand how much I miss you now

So I arrive at the conclusion
Love isn't made
Love doesn't sell or pay
But we buy and sell our love away

Escape to the water and stare up at the stars and moon and sky
I was lying on my back with my fingers in the sand
Alone in Miami it sounds so funny
And yet here I am
It's funny how life is seldom what you plan

Don't let the panic bring you down
Don't let the panic bring you down
Don't let the panic bring you down
Love isn't made

How could we have let this go?
How could we have almost lost it all?
How had we forgotten
Love isn't made


i'm gonna have to change "alone in miami" to "alone in toronto" tmrw. wowza. it's time to go.