i don't like doing things i don't want to do. i don't like when ppl try to make me do things i don't want to do. who does?! the feeling is just so horrible.. when someone tries to to get you to agree on something that you know you're not gonna do.. but they just won't stop. i know i can be stubborn but sometimes it can be justified?

and then i thought today.. life is sometimes just about sucking it up and doing things you don't want to do. because sometimes God wants you to do something. or be someone. or feel a certain way. and you just can't help it. because it's God. how can you argue with Him? and the feeling of doing something God wants you to do shouldn't be so horrible.

but we all know there's a difference between knowing and doing.

anyways. pictures from jess and kev's wedding! such a joyous day celebrating their new start :) it's crazy that i can't even finish uploading my pictures and ppl have already started viewing the album haha.

the bride jess! how beautiful :)

end of the night.. haha love this pic.

so my plans for september have finally been settled. i'll be back at western for a 5th year. probably only one semester. so for those of you who read this.. you don't have to ask me now! yaay. there was some disappointment of course but in a way i'm kinda looking fwd to going back. i don't have to say bye to western campus life yet.. which i would've missed and will miss A LOT. and of course i'm happy i'll be back for another exciting year of ACF :)

i convocated last week! along with everyone else.. congrats UWO grads :D

BHSc girls woot!! it was a fun 4 years ladies :)

with my parents

we had a little fun with our hoods. hey you pay 30$ for them.. why not use them to the fullest!?

kung fu masters

deranged nuns?! :P

beauty pageant contestants haha..

self-pity is the deadly enemy of our generation.

how true is this?! how many times do we feel sorry for ourselves because we don't get what we want? or because things don't go the way we had hoped making our lives just a bit harder. there are so many cases that self-pity can be applied to in our generation:

• your parents are making you do something you don't want to do.
• you didn't get into grad school (med/OT/PT/masters/whatever)
• you're lonely.
• you like this girl/guy but she/he doesn't like you. or.. you can't be with her/him for whatever reason.
• there's no one out there for me.
• you have so much work and studying to do.
• you're soo busy.
• ppl aren't complying to your wishes.

and list could go on. how many of these can you say you've been guilty of complaining about? i know i'm guilty.

it's like trapping yourself in the prison of your own mind. so dangerous. and deadly for your spiritual life.

do not open the door to the enemy by showing yourself pity. instead.. have hope and courage. endure those trying times.

fight the good fight with humility and wisdom from above!

muahaha in one day.. i managed to get pictures of 2 different ppl holding KNIVES! and it's 2 ppl i don't get to see very often nowadays too! woot :D

jon lin - steak knife extraordinaire

cora - master of the meat cleaver

i'm getting pretty excited about moving at the end of the summer. we went to go look at our new house today.. the frame is up and windows and doors are in. still awhile before it's all done being built tho. but it was cool to hang out there for awhile! and especially on such a beautiful day. i sat on the porch of the house across from us.. just looking at the house. picturing what it will be like to live there. it's a quiet street for now. by the way.. if anyone is looking to move to london or buy a house in london.. the house to the right of us AND across from us is up for grabs! AND the lot to the left of us is also empty right now.. looking for some good ppl to build a house on it :D someone.. anyone? do iiit :P

another blast from the past today! i decided to look at my old yearbooks.. from gr. 12 and OAC year. makes me want to go back to highschool for just a day to experience it again. those were good times. i'm not sure.. but i think my OAC biology teacher mocked me when he signed my yearbook! and it's so cool to read what friends wrote.. and laugh at inside jokes and memories. haha.. OAC was such a fun year. spares in both semesters. got involved a lot with clubs and stuff. bio, french, and calculus were the funnest classes. because of the friends that were in those classes and because my teachers were so awesome. had so much fun bugging my OAC bio teacher mr. bially about everything. had so much fun with my core french friends making crepes with madame charlton and playing euchre. i made a facebook group for my french class tonight :P harhar. had so much fun with my calculus teacher mr. yakopich and his corny jokes and hilarious nicknames for all of us.

i like living in the past. maybe a bit too much. i think i like reminiscing a lot more than i like talking about the future. *shrug* sure memories are a lot more comforting than uncertain plans and aspirations. i dunno what i would do if i didn't have the promises of the Lord. promises like Jeremiah 29:11 and Romans 8:28. there are always ppl who have to know for certain what's going to happen. but despite everything.. i'm ok with not knowing yet. and i'm glad that God's the only one who knows :)

patience must be joined to your faith or you will miss the timing of the Lord.

something i read in the book i'm reading right now that hit me quite hard. even though it's something that i know and have known for awhile.. it's something that can always be re-learned. especially when there are a lot of things to wait for right now.

i guess i can try to define serious awkwardness.. :P

it's when something happens.. and you're not sure if it REALLY just happened. you're in a state of disbelief.
it's when you don't want to break the silence because if you do.. it'll make things even MORE awkward.
it's so awkward that laughing would be disrespectful and uncalled for.

these don't all have to apply for it to be seriously awkward. but ..that's my attempt to define it!

i feel like i've been having way too much fun this summer.. fun that is not balanced by any kind of work or school :P

UNITED concert was soo sooooo good. ahh.. what an amazing time of worship. really didn't want it to end. been learning about their ministries recently.. and wow what a passionate group of ppl dedicated to making God's name known! in the words of phil dooley.. if you've got Jesus, you've got something to give. i understand this in 2 ways. sharing Jesus with non-believers as well as sharing Jesus with believers. i think he was emphasizing the first way tho that night. definitely a great message.

180 at hillsong united concert

yay for random reunions! saw jon lo from my CC small group 2 yrs ago :)

i thoroughly enjoyed the rest of the weekend too! getting to see lots of ppl i hadn't seen in awhile..

spectators at DMM game

we made it to the zoo! the 5 of us.

they're as civilized as the animals are!

ernie clearly knows how to read signs

dinner at lemongrass with the girls!

the Lord's hand at work has been really evident lately. in my life and in the lives of those around me. God's power is unrelenting!

Do not rejoice over me, my enemy;

When I fall, I will arise; When I sit in darkness,

The LORD will be a light to me. Micah 7:8 (NKJV)

this verse rings so true with me right now! the Lord brings light to dark places. and we are to bring light to dark places too. where there is light, there is no room for darkness! hallelujah!