this day is bananas B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

this line ran through my mind over and over again as i listened to my classmates talk about all the stuff we have to do for the next couple weeks. i'm not really one to stress.. but today i had a slight panic attack. just a little one. but the more there is to do.. the more i procrastinate! lol. hey gotta take care of the body first. eat and sleep is the first thing i did when i got home from school today :D

another reason this day was bananas was because of this possiblity of a strike happening at york. our prof addressed it in class today and made it very real to us.. that IT MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN. and if it does happen.. it may be the end of our semester. wowza. but at this moment.. some of us would love to see it happen because there's just so much to do. a strike would mean we don't have to do all of it.. just yet. it's pretty selfish to want it to happen for this reason tho.. it really does screw over ppl who need to graduate. heck it screws us over too! our education would be put on hold. and while i would welcome a break.. i would not welcome the idea of becoming a nurse later than scheduled! i'm so torn. but it's in the Lord's hands. good to know.

the level of stress today among my classmates was higher than ever before. it was pretty funny tho.. being tired and stressed together makes for a good time! we start laughing at each other over the most trivial things.. the things we say or the way we say it. ahh i'm blessed to have such great classmates. love them :)

i'm really seeing God in the little things these days. like being able to talk to co-workers about faith and how God has blessed my life. and bumping into this lady i met on the first day of going to my new church on the subway monday morning on the way to clinical. she's a nurse too.. and she blessed me so much that day i first met her. she was so warm and welcoming. seeing and talking to her that morning was really an encouragement. and today ernie just so happened to be picking up his sister as i was walking out of finch station to go home and we got to catch up a bit - something we've been wanting to do for awhile. it was short but nice. there's a bunch more that i can't remember. as a wise friend of mine has said ..i'm much better at just recalling them in my mind without putting my experiences into words. so this will have to do.

i love experiencing God in the little things. but sometimes i miss seeing Him in the big things too. i don't even really know what i mean by "big things". i guess.. just something spectacular that God could show me. like a BAM! getting hit over the head with a ton of bricks with something so profound and relevant. believe and expect.. gotta be doing more of that.

jason mraz and i have something in common!

excerpt from his latest journal entry:

P.S. I've decided I want those sneakers that have those hidden wheels in the bottom so I can skate around the airport like a child, in case you're wondering what to get me for Christmas.

Love, Jason
- Denver, Colorado

i've always wanted those wheely shoes! not to skate around airports.. but just ..around.


i've never had chicken pox. so i had to get the vaccine last week because i started clinical today. can't risk getting chicken pox in the hospital! i got a kick out of what my doctor said to me while she was giving me the shot..

me: yea me, my brother, and sister have never had chicken pox. it's weird.
doctor: did you guys grow up in isolation?

LOL.


so yes.. today was first day of clinical. haven't had to wake up at 530am since opening at starbucks in london....... it was a good day tho! i took the vitals of a baby who was only 3 hours old :O amazing.

i used to think that newborn babies weren't cute. i thought their cuteness didn't kick in until at least 5-6 months? but today.. THEY WERE ADORABLE. i guess seeing them in the context of the hospital.. with the new parents glowing all over them makes it all different :)

i finally did it. slept in for class. i was waiting for this day to come! strangely.. i do not feel guilty. hahahaha. i love thisssssss.

i need to start writing stuff down when i want to blog about it. now that i have some time to blog.. everything escapes me. sigh.

we sang this song at church on sunday and i really liked it. i guess it's an old song but it's new to me.

You are God alone from before time began
You were on Your throne
You are God alone
And right now in the good times and bad
You are on Your throne
You are God alone

that's not the whole song.. just the chorus and the part that stuck out to me the most. i guess it reminded me that even through all these crazy times God is still sitting on the throne of my heart. He never left and He never will. but it's about.. if i'm gonna choose to acknowledge that. to acknowledge Him to be the King of my heart and life. in so many ways i can say that He is. but in so many ways He isn't as well. gotta start being intentional. gotta start focusing again. the words of the song are so simple. He is God alone.. the only God there is. the only God worth loving.

i still believe in thanking God for the little things. i love to look back on things and realize it was God's doing. it's even better when you can know on the spot that it's all God too. i think the timing of me missing class today was God. it's like.. He knew i needed a day like this. so He was like.. "forget about that alarm. wake up at just the right time to know it's too late to go. and just relax. stay at home on this cold cold day and enjoy yourself. enjoy Me."

:)

love God.

when i get busy i think about how busy i am and it makes me more busy. i don't like it.

yesterday the words "i hate my life" actually came out of my mouth. i said it too hastily.. while thinking about the many things that i have to do. but i regretted it right away. because i don't hate my life. the opposite is true! as was expressed a couple posts ago.. my life is good. because God has blessed me with such a rich life. not rich in the money sense.. but rich with blessings and ppl and goodness from the Lord.

why am i complaining? why do i stew in my own "busy-ness" and not do anything about it? or maybe the problem is that i'm just doing too much. sigh.. time to refocus again?